it could just be insecurity. but it is not easy being a woman with a shaven head. Like i worry so much about my face and what I’m wearing. I feel like i put a lot of effort in my looks instead of just being happy and embrace my decision. I just wanna be considered sexy but i should not need anyone to tell me that…

shit imma go back to braids or dreads….

shit…

nawh i don’t feel like sitting in that chair for hours listening to somebody ask me about my feelings, love life and future N shit.

Yea, i’m sticking with the barbershop *shrugs*

this is my last sunday home and in 5 days i am leaving for baltimore. wow. i plan to cherish these next 5 days to relax, have some fun and pack lol

like i dont want to sound like i’m addicted

but..

Every start is the same but every ending

falls into a different direction.

the seconds of worrying about every little thing

to 2 hours of reckless and aggressive loving.

I enjoy the scent we create together.

your skin gliding up and down mine

as gentle as a feather.

everything in the world seems fine.

as picture perfect to match the weather.

every growl, imperfect movement ,purrr

and all the “all of a sudden” stirs

just makes my body come alive…

after all is done we let out a blissful sigh..

I simply love the short breaths and pecks.

the grip of my hands and your dark brown eyes bulls-eyed on mine.

the moments of time where we

forget about the rest.

every argument means nothing

others just call it fucking

but we call it something.

I just want this feeling of being in love with..

someone who loves to be in love with me

~Forever.

i am trying not to expect anything anymore.

i am trying not to trust people with my heart.

I am trying to stay positive at whatever life throws to me.

I am trying not get to upset about the “little” things.

I am trying to live life carelessly.

I am trying to become healthy inside and out.

I am trying to find my beauty again.

I am trying to love myself again.

I am trying to get ready for the next chapter in my life..

I am trying to be the real me ..

and if i keep this up..the “trying to” will disappear and ill be complete. <3

wuzzgoo

i like where we stand now.

i like your smile.

i like your hair.

i like your laugh.

i like your attitude.

I like your girl abs.

I like your long text letters.

You are the best wife ever.

just thought i’d give you a reminder.

aight DEUCES boo boo

i cant explain the happiness i feel about saying those very words. <3